oh God.
dead tired -falls flat on floor-
cannot pass the frigging standing broad jump .. missed by 3cm and i have to retake the entire 5 items all over again :( what are they gonna do man. force me to jump over and over again till i pass? what if i just cant do it? what is their effing problem?? does it mean if i jump 3cm further it proves me to be healthy + fit? or what? they cannot define the nation's ability with just some digits, it doesnt do us any justice. atrocious edictions (for the third time or something) but anyway. nothing's ever fair.
the thing is. i actually jumped over 147 but mr phee wasnt there to testify it took place so it wasnt counted. and what is this? are they gonna deny that this ever took place? so nothing ever counts? yea im a loser i cant even jump 147cm but so what? my height does not even exceed 147 by 10cm! im only like 156 or smth. you mean im supposed to jump over myself? okay this is really crappy. but i just needed to rant on and on and on. ARE THEY GONNA MAKE ME JUMP 147CM TILL AUGUST EVERY SINGLE DAY?? hello, get a life. its just some stupid black smelly mat. its just a couple of lines and we are suppose to follow that .. thing and do as it says? growls.

OH WELL.
im a born loser, what to do.

and my ass hurts like eff. its driving me nuts, i cant even sit or stand without cringing. yea and it was all thanks to that smelly black mat. i HAD to fall flat on it. if i cant like, shit or whatever, i swear im gonna rip those mats apart and .. burn them!
and my legs? they weigh like, a ton now and i cant even walk properly ; its all wobbly. can you see i tried to make it?? CAN YOU? stop effing my already effed up life with this crap. im like a walking bruise already and i DO NOT WANT TO DO ALL THE 5 ITEMS AGAIN NEXT WEEK bcos of 3cm.

and for your information
i tried jumping again and again for like 2hours+
no, all that goes down the chute.
i dont get ANY credit for that.

but so what if i refuse to do it? im just gonna get reprimanded, forced to do this crap ANYHOW, and end up paralysed trying to jump 3cm further. can i just NOT do smth i dont want to? for once?

ARGH! whatever.